Becoming a father - finding deeper significance

Becoming a father has zoomed out my perspective of life and grown my capacity for love. I am finding a deeper appreciation for multi-generational love. My heart is actively expanding every passing hour. 

I am soaking in the beauty of becoming a father. Chelsea and I have been learning how to change diapers, swaddle, and function off minimal sleep. It was a whirlwind from July 31 - August 2 as doctors and nurses were constantly checking on the status of baby and Chelsea. Such a joyous and momentous time as we witnessed and comprehend the miraculous arrival of our first daughter!

Life is so beautiful. Life can also be horribly painful. Three years ago I experienced the pain of losing my mom too soon. I vividly remember the tragic phone call and could pinpoint exactly where I was when my dad gave the heart wrenching news to come home. For the past couple years, the arrival of August has represented sorrow and grief. The grief for me has been because I have love for my mom and I can’t express to her on earth. I can’t hug her. I can’t say I love you with a tangible response. 

The arrival of August has been transformed. I began to reflect on the timing of our daughter’s arrival. When I have clear eyes and an open heart the beauty of God’s story reveals itself. It brings tears to my eyes as I see the significance of my daughter's arrival into the family:

July 31 was the last day I told my mom I loved her and the first day I said I love you to my daughter.

August 2 is the day my mom left her earth home and the day my daughter arrives to her earth home.

I know mom is smiling on as her granddaughter begins her legacy and grows into a young woman making the world a better place. The love I have for my mom has a home with my daughter during my time on earth.